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Help me open my mind?
After realizing that my dad is diagnosed with colon cancer for 3rd stage and lung cancer, that the colon cancer cells has dissipated to, I have been an emotional wreck. Despite that my dad is already in the recovering process of the cancer and applying chemotherapy, I could not overcome my emotions and fear, the fear that my family is drifting away from me, the fear that my dad will abandon the world someday, the fear that i am losing MYSELF. I could not open up my heart to my friends nor anyone. I act trivial toward them as if i am perfectly fine. But deep down in my heart, i feel agony, impotence, inferiority, and depressed. Both my parents have traveled to another country in order to heal my dad's cancer. When i talk to my friends, I do not have that mood anymore. At school, i no longer worry about grades, instead all i do is daydream and ponder when i will be able to visit my father once again. Many people have tried broadening my secluded narrow mind, yet it never seems to work. Moreover, i have been hurt by my parents many times due to their verbal abuse. My dad's scorn of my stupidity and my mom's scold for being too genuine and necessity to toughen up. My mother's goal for me to be what she wants me to be. THis is what confuses me. On one hand, i abhor my parents for making me feel inferior. On the other hand, if i can not abhor them due to the fact that they are my family and the definition of family is unconditional love. Thus, it is often foilsome for me to express my thoughts to them, i do not want them to be in agony, especially when my mother is always worrying of taking care of the family and my father's health. If i tell them the truth, i feel that i would only hurt them even more. I really have a conflict with expressing my grief and anger to friends and family. From having difficulty of expressing my wrath to my parents to my agony of family love to not knowing what to do for my life, i feel like a little girl in a lost forest, where i no longer can see my future, I only see a foreshadow of a gloomy, lonely maze of my path.
Colon Cleansing in Plain English
I dont know what to do.Should i get counselling?
You can read the below if you want but i think im depressed. Pretty much everything pisses me off, i never want to do anything, im in love with some one that hates me and generaaly i hate myself. what can i do? If I see her she looks at the floor, id almost rather she called me a name orkicked me, I dont know what to do, its destroying my life
asked her for another chance. this was over email. She said that I dont need to worry about the below any more, she has forgiven and moved on. I told her that that means a lot but she is really special to me. She answered saying she is not all that and that she didnt do anything to make me feel like that. I said that to me she is all that, her smile being around her etc. She answered saying that that is honestly really sweet, but she didnt know what i wanted her to say. I told her I dont want her to say anything, I only want her to say what she wants to say, no matter what that is. I said id like a chance. She answered to$ do what? I said to talk, to be freinds to show her how special she is and that id never hurt her again. She answered saying she cant lie about it we cant be friends, but she has no bad feeling towards me. I said ok, thanks for even chatting take care etc. That was over a week ago, luckily i dont run into her that often, but sometimes when i do i catch her looking at me but cant decide if its evils or what? I know I cant contact her again but seeing her kills me and i really dont know what to do any more she doesnt even acknowledge me unless there is no option and its tearing me apart!!
Read the below if you want lol ....In short I was an idiot she hated me now at least she is civil.
Would it be the worst thing in the world to as her for another chance??
By the way I know what i say below is no excuse, whatever was going on I know how badly I acted but she is so special its unbelievable
saw this girl at the end of last year. We spent the last 4 months of 08 together. I know that is a year ago. In nov last year i was told i needed to have polyps removed from my colon. This completely freaked me out and I lost control of every aspect of my life, including her. I got really bad and hassled her as I needed some one. I know this was bad and I am so ashamed of what i did. As we work together I have seen her every day since, now sometimes she might smile or if i mail her for help with work she always does it and she is amazingly civil with me which i really do appreciate. Problem is I am still in love with her, so seeing her and being blanked or getting a pity smile destroys me. Is there any way I can show her I am back to who I was what can i say or do? ive made sure all my mates dont know anything and are all still really nice to her so she doesnt think i say anything bad. Is there anything i could do? problem is I was mental for ages and was not nice at all. Only recently has she been able to even look at me and that is still rare! She knows what i went through and i dont think she cares, we spoke breifly on email and she did say she was sorry about what happened but it did. I know people will think I am infatuated but its not that, I dont even feel like I have been alive this year and only now I am coming to my senses. Any advice (however harsh
is greatly apprecited
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How do I deal?
I am having a terrible week; my husband and I got word that our baby has died and now we are waiting to miscarry, my father in law was diagnosed with stage 3 colon caner, and our dog died. My husband has taken on the role of trying to be the back bone for everyone, supporting and consoling us all. I am so worried that he is not taking care of himself the way he needs to right now. How can I help him? Any advice on how to deal with such awful terrible devastating news all at once?
Do I have colon cancer?
I'm not going crap everday like I used too. But when I do go crap it's one normal sized and shaped piece and another ribbion like piece of crap.
Abdominal distension: Nope
Abdominal pain: Nope
Unexplained, persistent nausea or vomiting: Nope
Unexplained weight loss: Nope
Change in frequency or character of stool (bowel movements): nope
Small-caliber (narrow) or ribbon-like stools: I dont' think so?
Sensation of incomplete evacuation after a bowel movement: Nope
RectalAnorectal fistulas
Colon cancer
Colorectal polyps
Digital rectal exam
Hemorrhoids
Imperforate anus
Imperforate anus repair
Inflatable artificial sphincter
Proctitis
Rectal biopsy
Rectal cancer, x-ray pain: Nope
Age. About 90 percent of people diagnosed with colon cancer are older than 50: I'm 21.
A personal history of colorectalColon cancer
Colorectal polyps cancer or polyps: Not that I know of.
InflammatoryInflammatory bowel disease
Ulcerative colitis intestinalAmebic liver abscess
Barium enema
Colorectal polyps
Colostomy
Gastrointestinal bleeding
Gastrointestinal disorders - resources
Gastrointestinal perforation
Intestinal gas
Intestinal leiomyoma
Intestinal obstruction
Intestinal obstruction repair conditions: Nope
Inherited disordersAdjustment disorder
Anorexia nervosa
Asperger syndrome
Autism
Autoimmune disorders
Bipolar disorder
Bipolar disorder
Bleeding disorders
Borderline personality disorder
Bulimia
Chronic motor tic disorder that affect the colon: I might have hemmorides, thouh it usually doesn't cause a problem for me. Basiclly it's not active most of the time.
FamilyBirth control and family planning
Choosing a primary care provider
Ewing’s sarcoma
Family troubles - resources history of colon cancer and colon polyps: Only my grandma, nobody else even polyps. My parents who are over 50 both got colonoscapes, neither one of them had any polyps.
Diet. Colon cancer and rectal cancer may be associated with a diet low in fiber and high in fat and calories: Probably
A sedentary lifestyle: Yeah, but do try to get at least a little bit of exercise each day.
Diabetes: Nope
Obesity: I'm only 145 pounds
Smoking. I don't smoke
Alcohol: I don't drink
Growth hormone disorder: I don't think so.
Radiation therapy for cancer: I've never had cancer or anyone in my family except for my granda who was a smoker.
How do I get my grandmother to take better care of herself?
I've got to provide some background info first.
My grandmother is in her sixties and was widowed in January of 2008. For 80% of her married life, she took care of my grandfather, who was shot by a poacher when he was a game warden. So he was disabled for much of their marriage: she was the bread-winner, the care-taker, the everything. He died of colon cancer, and it was a long and painful death, let me tell you. It was the kind of dying where you hate to see them alive because the pain is just too much for anyone to bear. Of course, his passing was sad, but everyone was glad that he was no longer in pain. ESPECIALLY because he had been in pain for most of his life because of the gunshot wound, in addition to the horrible pain of spreading, incurable cancer.
Everyone was glad, except for my grandmother. She started calling his death a "tragedy" and started blaming herself for his death. No one could make her listen to reason- not hospice (who was there round-the-clock prior to his death), not her children, not her grandchildren, and definitely not her doctor.
Now, I know that everyone deals with death and with pain differently, and I know that I have never felt a loss similar to losing a spouse. But my grandmother has become a different person. Her main priority in life is putting as many pictures of her late husband in the house as she can. I mean, every surface is soon to be covered. She constantly talks about him, and if other people don't cry when she does, she is angry. She sees "signs" and messages from him everywhere, and she talks to him. She is only concerned with her dead husband, and not with her living children and grandchildren.
But all of these things is not what I'm worried about. I'm worried about her health. She contracted rheumatic fever when she was a child, which went untreated long enough to cause heart problems. And, needless to say, she didn't always take spectacular care of herself during her marriage because she was too focused on taking care of her husband. Regardless, she always kept doctors appointments and followed instructions.
Since my grandfather has died, my grandmother has completely stopped taking care of herself. She prefers weeping to sleeping. She prefers talking to dead relatives to sleeping. She prefers anything to sleeping. She also continues to drive and expresses anger when people offer to drive, even though her driving is highly erratic and unsafe. She rarely takes medicine. She doesn't report the results of her heart monitor or pacemaker. She doesn't eat or drink well (her diet is about 3 cokes a day and very little food). She refuses to rest and is always in the yard or on the lawnmower. Her heart is constantly out of rhythm and she doesn't take the medicine to help it OR call a doctor. She also refuses to get the heart surgery that is highly recommended by every doctor she's ever seen. She also lies to her doctors about her health: they think she takes every pill and monitors things carefully, and they think her heart is rarely out of rhythm.
Another problem is my grandfather's will. My grandmother and grandfather told no one about the will except the person who was left everything- their youngest son. Needless to say, that raises a lot of questions. My grandmother lies to her children and refuses to talk with all of them at once- no one gets the same story twice. This is obviously something that should be talked about, and my grandmother refuses and lies and pretends things never happened.
Basically, myself and my family are very concerned that she is going to kill herself. She's not in her right mind, and she lies to doctors so they have no clue what's really going on. And, of course, because of privacy laws and patient laws, no one can give or receive information as long as my grandmother keeps signing those forms, which she does. Even on one of her family-forced trips to the ER, my mom and her two brothers tried to talk to a nurse in the hallway about my grandmother's ACTUAL condition. The nurse held up her hand to get them to stop talking, and she said that all questions and concerns must be at the patient's request and through the patient.
Ultimately, my grandmother is stressed, she is unhealthy, she is not sleeping, she is not properly medicating, she is emotionally unstable, and she lies to doctors. She also lies to family members about her health and her behaviour, and she is entirely absorbed with my dad grandfather.
We don't know what to do. My grandmother is not herself anymore, and we'd like to see her caring about the living rather than the dead. No one can get her to see how much life SHE has, and how important and happy her life can still be.
I know this was long, but I wanted to make sure any readers really understood the situation.
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